I cried and
I mourned for you, Cause u were gone, for good, I forgave everything…I’LL KEEP
IT THAT WAY, you remember once upon a time you traveled to Lima and I thought
you were here to save me, in so many ways, just by being here and being there.
I remember the first time that medicine hurt me so bad and you told me, call
me anyway or we will grow apart. I was crying this morning, and not for the
things you said, I don’t know why I need to make sure u r ok, u know? Locked in
a bubble, I was so complainy, telling you I want my freaking career, and that
job. I was so ashamed of so many things, when u first came to my life I
changed, only because you were there. You thought me so many things, but were
years and are such a heavy weight. I know you tried to hurt me with the things
you said, it didn’t touched me, but Im in denial things can not be this way.
Sweet angel come back, not to me, to yourself! If you keep growing hate, u will
seed death ends. Just for you to know, I rather those nights sick in bed,
talking on the phone with you, that every single thing is new in this new life
that I gained. Somebody should have told me “once upon a time” I was save. With
you. Yeap.
This guy
looked at me yesterday like if I was a piece of stake. People is so troubled, I
can’t touched them I don’t care. This career is schedules which I hate. And my
job means I try to save myself from myself. New clothes won’t make a
difference. I will have to make it for others myself. –(God knows he is good
and he prepares the way for us and good things for us to do)-
Honey yes you were cruel yesterday, I won’t
tell you again u didn’t get the reaction out of me that you expected, u might
get so mad and come and kill me yourself…who knows…
“The bubble”
with you, was the best thing that happened to me, in so long man, I miss my
freaking bubble and my freaking room like hell! You gave me the best at the
starts, that I ever dreamed I could have. Now people is running all over the
place, like if the world was gonna end. I stay still, I wait for what God has
to say. Period.
But no, it’s
not the same. You’ve changed so Much, I’ve changed so much, years seem to
damage people so bad gosh! I just beg God for your life and for your heart, you
can treat me or mistreat me, you can try to do or undo me, if it comes from
you, my enemy and best thing I ever, its fine, you know? I’m not in love with
you anymore. No, this is not please come back, I’m just sorry, so sorry things
ended up this way I’m begging God for your life, I can’t stop myself there’s
must be something wrong with my brain. Please be ok…just be ok, be mature, be a
man, don’t mess with peoples hearts, behave!!! Love ya my enemy/notfriend. Just for you to know, you are the first enemy I truly deeply LOVE N CARE!!!
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